I clutch at my blanket, watching the sky for the next strike. I wait through the silence until a distant rumble shakes the air. I hold my breath. The sky suddenly flashes and cracks, a crooked streak that burns through the clouds. A second later the air pops and bellows. The walls shake, the windows rattle. My heart speeds up in my chest. My nerves beg me to run, to hide, but I can’t. I’m fixated on the sky, watching, waiting, praying for another one.
There are different kinds of fear. Most are the negative kind, preventing us from living our lives to the fullest–fear of rejection, of failure, of disappointment.
Sometimes we delight in being afraid. People flock to haunted houses for a reason. (I am not one of those people.) Thrill seekers pursue mild experiences of fear from roller coasters to more intense activities like jumping off a cliff.
Fear gets your heart racing, your pulse pounding in your ears, your hands shaking as adrenaline courses through your body. It wakes up every nerve so your whole body feels alive with tingling energy.
Everybody has fears. Most of us probably dwell on the ones that paralyze us, the ones we try to avoid or hide from. Do you ever think about the fear you love, the one that you would chase to experience instead of hide from?
Lightning terrifies me. Its unbridled, destructive power makes me tremble. But I love it. It’s the closest I can come to understanding what the fear of the Lord is–awe, love, reverence…trembling fear.
What fear are you addicted to? What are you scared of yet you chase in order to experience that terrifying awe? I love hearing from you!
You can also find me on Mistress Suzie’s blog today with another flash fiction episode of my kitty’s adventures.